Its been more than a week since i blog. i wasn't in town... and now i am sleepy, woke up at 5.30am, sent anor to the airport, caught in the traffic jam... i need some sleep...
Enough about me, next weekend, my friend is getting married. and the weekend after that, my cousin's turn. hmm... i guess in this country, December is the mating season for human.. as for me, i can hardly find the word marriage in my dictionary of life... :?
Some people surrender to the pressure of getting married before reaching certain age, that they willing to seek for their family's help in finding their partner. Personally, I don't think this is a wise move. What's great in your family's eyes, may not be that pleasing to you.
So if the match turns out to be at least, suitable, then its no biggie...But what if its the other way around?? I am to scared to think of the consequences. But if this is the case, I think I can redefine the word marriage as consenting rape...
OK, basically, get to know and love the people you are going to spend your life with. For me, marriage is not to be wasted by divorce, but if that is the best way... do what's best!
Ah well, anor took the compliment of writing the blog yesterday, so i thought i'll rest for the day. Anyway, today i'm back, but sadly, anor and i won't be around for about a week from now. Holiday!!!! A week away from work, office, and my boss! hurrah!!
OK, today i wanna blab about my work. Amazingly, I am the first to arrive today, even the toilet paper hasn't been changed... :lol: I love to come in early, and start fresh... but... i hate to go back late. And that's one habit of this office that i'm coming up firmly against. So everyday, I came in early, and go back early... fair and square...
Another thing is everything here is sooo unpredictable. one moment i'm like only doing R&D for myself, blankly... and there will be a time when even 48hours a day is not enough! ugh!! at that time, i can slay almost everything, even this building!!
Conclusion... do I enjoy working?? hmmmm.. it's difficult to say yes, but i definitely can't say no. The colleagues are nice, but the inconsistency is killing me!
Whatever it is, i need to do my work properly, because at the end of the day its the pay that helps me go through my life. If my work does not worth the pay, i may be saying goodbye to a blessed life....
In less than 2 months, we will be saying goodbye to the year 2003. Look back.... what have we done for the previous 10++ months?
In January, a lot of new year resolution created. Are we manage to achieve all of it? What can we do in this limited time to achieve our goals, before the next year invades our life?
As for me, this year ends up much better than it started. So, I believe my resolution is somewhat fulfilled. Until June, I am practically 'jobless' and 'penniless', following my previous company's funding-less state.. but after some bitter time, out of job, my 2 cats died :oops: , zero savings, etc...; things are looking much2 better now. Except that anor and I are forced to separate; but i believe thats for the better of us. Better for our relationship, and our life too...
So, basically... I have achieved my resolution for this year. But, it's a looong way to go. Only God knows what's in store for me, and also, for you...
wow! its been like forever since i added my blog. busy busy busy... accompanied with the redness of my bald-headed boss, i can't even find time for myself.
This weekend I went to visit anor. well, it has been about two months since we are not staying together. she needs to work somewhere else, while i am stuck with my commitment here. But I really wish i could join her later...
It really is sux being apart with the bestest friend. During the early weeks of our separation, I had to admit, I got lost. I kinda didn't know what to do, where to go, and I even lost my appetite! (Still, it didn't help to reduce my overweight problem...) She really means a lot to me... I believe this is the first time that we are really apart. We've been practically together since high school!! Its like... being apart does not exist in our dictionary
Anyway, with a few adjustment, you will begin to understand the meaning of 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'.
Ah well, if it is still unbearable, go and visit! We visited each other at least three times a month... hehe
I remembered few weeks back, when I was walking with my sister, she suddenly said to me... "I like being the minority." Then I asked her why, she said that it is because, other people are not doing what she is doing. For example, she said, if the majority is heading to one place, but she is among the minority heading in an opposite direction it'll save her time and crowdiness..
To one extent, I agree with my lil' sis. But as someone who has lived longer. It sometimes sucks being in the minority. Imagine you have one idea... but no one else is in favour of you... the idea will vanish just like that, even if it IS really good.
The general idea right now is, majority is always right. Do you agree? Let's take the invention of airplane for example. Those people who wants invent an object that can flies is said to be crackpots and wild-eyed dreamers. At least that's what the majority said. But when it is proven that a flying machine can be invented.... majority is using it. Better still, everyone cannot live without it.
Well, history has proven that the majority is NOT always right. Then, why is the majority-always-right idea is still present now?
IMHO, majority is not right, they just have more followers...
“I had been hungry all the years My noon had come, To dine; I, trembling, Drew the table near, And touched the curious wine…. “
Sitting boringly in this cubicle makes me feel so down. Suddenly this verse come to my mind, initiates me to jot something. Why it was written that way? Why curious wine? Disclaimer: I may be wrong for I am not a very good poem critic and could never be. Therefore what is written here is just my two cents.
As the word curious wine seriously sparks my interest, this tiny piece of writing will be about it. In this world, you might notice that some people were “curious”, in a way while the majority was not. Well, no two people in this world were the same. Physically, emotionally, mentally. Considering all aspects enlarges the differences between people. Most people may just follow all rules in the world and dare not to touch anything “curious”. But there are also some people who still touch the “curious” without any intention to test their own curiosity. They may just being themselves for testing those, no intention to do something nifty. Most of the time they’ll be seen awkward and peculiar. Why? They dare to be different. Were they wrong? For some, they may be wrong, to sway from the majority. Well, every man had his own quirks and twists.
For me personally, they didn’t disturb me and leave me unscathed. They were just another human being who accept themselves. So, let them, do not disturb them and try to accept them.
Now, sit and ponder. Didn’t we also sometimes feel the itch to touch the “curious wine”? :roll:
:? I did some searching in Google for the keyword 'euphoria'. I ended up reading listing of either a music group, or a programming language.
Anyway, the 'euphoria' that I want to write today is neither those two. After certain extra time searching, I finally got the definition of euphoria, which is [i]... the exaggerated feeling of happiness, confidence, and well-being, that especially occurs without justification of external reality. It can be induced by drugs and is also a feature of mania!!..[/i] huh... scary! its about being happy, but it also shows insanity!!
well... sometimes we do not need any justification of external reality to be happy! anyone agree with me? some people (ok.. take me for example...) when I am in the public, and sick of looking at people, I may sometimes create another world, and definitely I'm drawn into the other realm, which makes me happy... really happy. Even my colleague told me one day that she always saw me in 'engrossed' in my own world. I dunno what she meant by that. LOL!
ergh... I'm kinda feeling freaky now, but I tell you I'm waaaayy far from becoming insane! so, you can still feel safe around me.
Hey guys! imagination is fine... right? Life will be soo lame if we only follow what reality has in store for us. Yet, there are some 'things' that you cannot share with the majority :sigh: yeah! long live the imagination!!!
Hey, I think I am not insane... take a look at mey personality disorder test....
There are two types (if you call it type...) of [i]Homo sapiens[/i], male, and female. At least, until few years back, I still realise that gender classification only involves those two.
Yesterday, while I was surfing the net to gather some info on teenagers.... I stumbled upon an article about female labelling. And I notice that this labelling thingy is quite well-known nowadays.
So how is female labelled? (as I am a female, I am not gonna touch on the issue of male labelling, which I believe, also exist...) Well, there are:
the girly-girl
boyish girl
the in between :lol:
Some people find it easier to name them as femme, butch and andro, respectively.
If you are a female. Do you think you can label yourself? Or, so you belong somewhere in between the in-betweens? How do you feel about labelling yourself? Do you like it, or hate it?
Personally, I don't mind labelling people. But if these labels bring people to discriminate others, then I think it is not accepted. For example, generally people may have the idea that a girly-girl is being fussy, and time wasting. But that is how she handle her life. Who are you to argue?? And if the girl is boyish, people may straightly think that she is not straight. Well, that's not totally true. I believe your sexual orientation has nothing to do with your appearence.
And that is what we need to eliminate. Labelling and defining a person simply based from what you saw. Ridiculous! My advice is, if you want to judge a person, get to know them first.. only then you can have your own opinion about that fellow. But still, who are you to determine whether the person is good or bad??!
Personally, i don't know what to write today. It's been quite busy and I'm feeling crappy!
So, to keep this thing going, I just wanna post the result of a quiz I took. Basically, I just like the picture and Amber Benson!!
You are torn between the paths of dark and light. You possess qualities of both a pure wiccan and a dark witch, and only you can choose which one you will truly be. Remember, magic is a power by which you will receive back times three - choose carefully!
Everyone, including me, has our own reason of why we choose someone as our partner/best friend. People may go for looks, money, IQ, pure heart, etc... Try and ask the person sitting next to you, and you'll surely receive loads of different reasons.
So, if all of us have our own preferences... I wonder, why there are people that condems others' choice? These are some phrases that we can hear:
[i]"He's just not good enough for her?"[/i]
[i]"They are not compatible. He's good looking but she's hideous!!!"[/i]
[i]"It's not right for them to be together. Everyone knows that!"[/i]
I didn't say that it is wrong to comment or condemn people. I still did it... But instead of just blurt out our disapproval, why not take our time to think. Think... do we have a perfect life? Have we never done anything that may invoke other people to comment on us? Do we realise that what we see in other people may be the our own reflection? ...Think about it...
Better, just accept people for who they are. Because we are not in a good position to condemn. So what if a beautiful young girl marries a wealthy old man? What have we got to lose? Our head? :wink: Let them be happy... and people will let us enjoy our happiness...
Moods...
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When you brought me here, I thought it was to kill me. Or to lock
me in some mystical dungeon for all eternity here, with the torture. Instead you go all Dumbledore on me.
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