I just chatted with one of my colleague. And she asked me a question, which i find quite horrifying. heheh. She asked me, what in my philosophy in life (POL).. Oh great.. I suddenly realise, i cannot put my philosophy of life into words. Then she said, think... and I'll sure to come out with one.
What is the POL actually?? She said that it is something that you totally apply in your everyday life. And it acts as a guide for you to do something.
OK... so i think, and think. Wow!! Tremendous task thinking about OWN philosophy of life. Then I think, my philosophy is I enjoy learning about things while at the same time, preserving my trait as an otaku/anti social kinda person. How's that sound?? hahaha :lol:
But actually, each and everyone of us has our own philosophy. Its just that, we didn't acknowledge it, and didn't put it on the paper of our brain.
Ah well, there maybe some people have a different version of philosophy; one is for public viewing, and one is for personal use. heheheh... i dunno.. :wink:
I realise that my writing have been s-o-r-t of dull and boring. Its amazing how stress can suck the creative juice out of your head. Still, I keep posting to gain some tbucks, [i](which i don't really use anyway, but its cool to see the number adding up - 5 by 5 - everyday.. :D).. [/i] OK.. so every morning while walking along to my office [i](sheesh :? .. i always write about my walk to the office... i should be bored with that!..)[/i] Anyway, i notice that everyday, around 8-9a.m. there's this two European lady with one old Chinese man doing some tai-chi. I feel like joining them!!
I don't really know much about tai chi. But i really think that it looks more peaceful compared to all those step-aerobic-dance-kinda- thingy exercise. I know that it is said to help reduce stress, improve cardiovascular health, and provides relaxation to those practicing it.
I only got to join ONE tai-chi session. But that was waaay during my university years. First time doing it.. my God!! every single muscle of mine aching. So, I know its because of the first time but after that.. i didn't join the once-a-week session anymore. haha..
But now... i'm getting older, so i need to exercise.. and no, no jogging or gym-visit whatsoever, i'm not into that! Perhaps, tai-chi is the best exercise for me? :?
I wrote about decision yesterday, and now it left me puzzled. what is it that i want in my life? A good job? Or maybe a chance to live life where i can have anything that i want? Follow my own path? Or follow path others made for me?
I don't know. Infact, like hell i don't know. :x There are times that I am scared. Too scared to go through a different path in life. Actually, that's not OK... sooo not OK. But somehow, i sometimes believe my gut feelings. If it says no.. then, i am reluctant to do it.
Maybe i should breakfree of this whole comfortable zone with the help of other people. Then i will gain a better control of myself and my life. And yet with the responsibility and whatnot... grrrr As always, the problem is... when do i start?
Is it after certain milestone? or NOW? the problem is.. i'm sort of a procrastinator and layback kinda person. No one can help it.. but me.. :sigh: :cry:
I just sent anor back this morning. The walk from tren station to my office is damn tiring. But in the end, with sweat and blood, i manage to reach the office two minutes after 9.30...
This morning anor once said that she don't wanna go back. Then, she decided that she have to go back... Hmmm... I think everyone of us realises that everyday, we are bounded by decision. Be it very little, or a huge one.
Decision, in everyday stuff include... should we go now or later? Is it the blue or the yellow dress? Should we eat burger or roasted chicken? Sometimes your decision does not affect only you.. but also other people.
Ughhh... frankly speaking, i am soo bad in making decision, especially those involving other people. If someone asked me 'Where should we eat today?' My answer'll be ...'Up to you...' My reason of saying like that, is as not to upset others. Or so I think....
And then..... i ended up not really able to get what i really want. and i hate it. hate myself for not being able to express myself. arghhh... but one good thing is, once i met someone i can freely express myself, I know that i've found someone valuable in my life... ;)
:? wow! it feels like ages since I updated this blog. eheh. My sister told me that she found the two typical entry of me. One is stating that i'm too free, until i have nothing to do. The other is I am too busy, until i can't update this blog. Heh... well, that definitely shows that not many interesting things are going on in my life. Work, work and staying at home. Blech! sounds boring.. still, i love my life. :lol:
Election is coming in few more days. So, am I going to vote? sadly, no! Why, because eventhough i've registered, it seems that the authorities have not included my name yet. I'm quite pissed. Still, i am partly to be blamed for not re-registering. Ah well... heheh.
anor'll be coming back to vote. Go anor!! bring some flags, posters and whateva... heheh :P
I am pretty confident to tell you that every day, when anor is with me, she will definitely have this request... "youtte, can you massage my feet?.." :lol:
But my type of massaging, is simply putting pressure in random to her feet. Not like the real art of natural healing by applying pressure to the specific point of your feet, or known as reflexology.
If I (and maybe anor too) were to be given the real life experience of reflexogy, from a trained professional.. phew!!! i may passs! From what i can see... wow!! looks painful!! I believe if the the reflexologist really hit one of my extraordinarily painful point... he might end up massaging my feet using his teeth! :shock:
Anyway, I think reflexology is able to treat your disease from a distance... :? Some benefits of reflexology that has been identified are:
reducing stress
improved circulation and immune system
increase energy
help in conditions such as insomnia, asthma and allergies.
OK... so maybe that's only achievable if its done properly. Well, different point
The question is... what are the benefits of the application of my random silly pressure to anor's feet... I guess only she can answer that.. hahah
I came in to the office today, and turned on my PC as usual. Suddenly, it said that my profile is no longer existed. Heck!! When i hack my C drive, the folder storing my documents and settings is changed to back up. wow! somebody is hardworking enough to make it in backups. Or maybe its the job of a virus!!
So... i lost most of my settings! and the first three hours of the day is spent by restoring alll the network connections, and transferring my useful data. Arghhh! headache!
wow! today my colleague told me that i should run my own health website. heh.. that's tough! why? mainly because i am not a good writer. secondly, i am a well-known procrastinator... i fear that i might not be able to constantly update my site.
So, the reason she asked me to do it is because of my background. I have a degree in Biomedical Science. While most of my coursemate ended up doing benchwork, carrying out lab experiments... I ended up sitting benignly in front of a PC, in an IT company.
If my old friends asked me what i do now.. I'll answer, i am engaged in e-health, e-learning, and bla bla bla 'e'. Then, they'll definitely turn :shock: Heck! like i am not capable of doing this job.
So, this colleague of mine suggested me to write certain simple health tips on the web... seeing that most health articles are meant for more popular disease. and most articles are not tailored for specifically tailored for Malaysian.
Well, maybe i'll do that.. heh, just need to whack my lazy bum to do extra work... that's all... :roll:
am not in a good mood to write anything today, my dad is having a fever for more than a week now. Think i'm gonna go back to my hometown maybe tonight or tomorrow... i dunno... :?
I believe most of you guys have watched Charlize Theron's superb performance that awarded her the academy. Her performance is very impactful... at least to me. It was a sad movie. Even worse to anor.. she refuse to watch the whole movie with me, only dares to watch bits and pieces here and there. She said she'll definitely cry... :cry:
What triggers my emotion the most is, the fact that if you are considered as a low-life scum... you have only a slight chance to change and improve your way of life. From the movie, we see that Aileen wants to quit sexing around, and look for a better job. But, are we giving people like that a chance? Dare we encourage people like that to change?
Then, she had to do her prostitution job still... to earn some money. Then, she killed other people, who are mean to her... for self defence... and yes, money. I mean, OK, she was sexually abused from childhood, she had a rough life, she became a serial killer... and was sentenced to death... Tell me, is it herself... or is it her life that helps in labelling her as a vicious monster?
Now, lets look at this scenario. A wealthy and rich man, who is so good in marketing himself, and joins the political world. Then he is able to live the rich and famous lifestyle. Yet, he is involved in corruption. Not paying his staff's salary. Taking money that doesn't belong to him. Conning here and there... for what? Still the same, money!
But have we spent time to ponder... the con person may not directly kill seven people. But is the impace caused by this kind of people... is the same as killing seven other innocent lives?? I think its even more than that. They may have killed many children whom their parents cannot afford proper treatment. They may cause many other things...indirectly. Only because they are happily taking other people's belonging.
:!: Then, are these people sentenced to death? Are these people called criminal? What do you guys think?
I even believe that this is the greatest sin! A sin that relates to other people. God may forgive you, because He is The 'most' forgiving... But sins to other people, you need to find that specific person, and seek for forgiveness. Unlike God, they are not always there when you need them...
i'm not a good cook. well.. actually, i am thiiis close to cannot cook very well. even my brother is much much better than me.
ok... the question.. should a female be a good cook? Most ppl say its a must, so that they can be a great wife, and a great mom. Then what'll that leave me? Does that mean that i cannot be a good 'wife' or a good mom, due to the fact that i am poor in cooking? heh... like i care!
But deeeep down in my heart, i think that a great mom is one who can provide delish meal to the family. Like mine.. (love you mom!!).. and see how 'big' I've grown up to be... Still, what't the point of family gathering if you are not surrounded my sumptous meal. OK.. so now i admit, i may not be a good candidate for a great mother... LOL!
But then, that's what recipe books are for... people like me. A person like my mom doesn't reallt need those books thingy. So, at least, if I can't be a good mother, I can be of profit to those publishing company...
Very luckily... anor is a great cook. she can provide almost every type of meal that can satisfy my tastebud.. errrm, yeah, almost anything .. :roll:
'unleash your imagination and free your soul'... well, that's the tagline for the website fanfiction.net. I believe every fanfiction lover will make a visit to this site a must.
When I was still wearing my fanfic-oholic helmet, i'll be stuck on this site from morning till evening... which is, my working time... LOL! But still, I manage to finish my task, so I still think its fair to my bosses...
What makes fanfiction soooo addictive? For me, its the freedom to create your own storyline and especially your preferred ending to your favourite characters. Personally, I prefer fanfiction that revolves around the supporting characters in any anime/movie/books/TV series. The main reason is... they are not fully exposed in the original story!! So, I think writing fanfiction about main character is only slightly better than uncool... :roll:
For example, JK Rowling may not have time to develop the character of Fleur Delacour... but fanfiction writers can provide you with a better detailed story about her. And that's satisfaction.. to me.. :D
Still, you are not a true fanfiction addict until you write one... :roll:
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anor: Awaken the giant within Anthony Robbins
I quote...
When you brought me here, I thought it was to kill me. Or to lock
me in some mystical dungeon for all eternity here, with the torture. Instead you go all Dumbledore on me.
Willow
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